Having bipolar disorder fucking sucks.
I can’t stand not being able to just dose off like everyone I know. I seem to always have all this retarded amount of static energy and can never calm down to 2 percent. I have just days now where I can’t sleep. And will walk around my apartment terrible madly bored from nothing do, wanting to sleep and can’t, and then getting angry.
If I could just get one hour in i would be happy. I wish nothing more than this illness to fuck itself in the dickhole with a knife.
I wish I could exorcise all this media driven culture away